iamdew

Today is one of those days I feel sick to my stomach. I hate making decisions that affect the happiness of others. Right now I need to hurt someone or forfeit my own happiness. Decisions like these aren’t thrilling. I entered into this relationship knowing I was incapable of giving all of my heart so why did I enter into it at all?

Because I’m selfish. I wanted to get over someone else and eliminate these deperate feelings of loneliness and now, I have all the attention and time I want from the person I do not want it from. And, I’m really scared to leave because it means being lonely all over again.

At least you’ll get some great poetry out of it.